A Poisonous Passion

Now I know what actually passion is.

One day my soskom lecturer asked me to revise my paper.  The dead line is due the date we have the final exam, which was 2 weeks from the day she said it.
Then it was a week before the dead line, and I did not do anything to the paper.  Not even remember to even open it up again.  And even when I did remember to revise it, I always convinced my self that I could do it hours before the dead time on the dead date.  You know, a-last-minutes-deadliners is a grrreat advanture.  But still, nothing can be done perfectly in the rushing time.

On the other side.  One day four friends of mine and I were working on an investigation project for journalistic exam, and I used to be the video editor.  I spent hours editing the videos on a borrowed mac at campus.  When the preview day had come, our lecturer ,who we usually called 'ayah' or 'boss' or 'mas' or anywho, came down and checked the whole thing I had done with the video.  He then gave extremely many comments, and most of the best part was he wanted me to delete some parts and add some parts.  I nodded my head and right after he stood up to check the other team, I rushed to the mac and start editing again.  Not a second to waste.  I felt like I've been poisoned to stick my eyes on the screen and get things done soon.

Today when I look back in that time, I realize that I've been living on the right path.  I've found my passion.  Nope, not editing videos.  But journalistic.  I've seen myself doing many kinds of assignment, and not all of it were done as much eagerly as journalistic assignments.

Well, I sacrifice a lot on every single journalistic assignments.  I've wasted time, money, energy, feeling, money.  Err, did I say money already? Yeah, I actually mean to do that.  I've spent much money, and et cetera.

See?  How journalistic won my attention and also how much I not interested in soskom.  And not only soskom, many other subjects else. It explained.

So that was how I realized that since that day and until today, I've understood what actually passion is and I've decided what I want to be for the rest of my life, just like my passion.  A journalist.